only 3 more days

only 3 more days until thanksgiving break. oh, how i need this break. just thinking that two huge papers will be over w/ by the time i go home- it seems impossible to get them done by then- but to think about them being done is a great lifter-upper for me. it's almost here. just have to keep working, keep trying... keep pressing on. *sigh* college is not an easy place to be. many, many demanding requirements of me and my time, thoughts, life. it gets harder and harder to maintain a 4.0 gpa... who woulda thought. just have to keep working hard. the end is near, and that is hopeful.

what i did today:

1. church. it was WONDERFUL! lots of singing and just praising God... lifting my hands, even. i will admit, though, that i hardly paid attention to the sermon- i was a bit distracted by some of the psalms... so i just did some reading and marking in my bible. (i figured God would be ok w/ that.) tonight there was a marriage covenant service- for couples to go and renew their vows to each other and claim their home as a "divorce-proofed" home. summit has been doing a huge "divorce-proof your marriage" campaign for some time now and it's had an awesome effect on the church family as a whole. i can really see it w/in the couples there (young and old) and in the way the couples interact w/ their children and other people. it's a beautiful thing, really... inspiring. every sunday as i walk into the church i think- argh- i can't wait to have what they have... that marriage, grounded in christ, so happy w/ my husband (and him so happy w/ me)... it will come some day. i know it will. God must have something big planned for me. somebody will love God enough and then will love me enough... i just know it. good things come to those who wait, right? anywho. i bought the book "divorce-proof your marriage" as a reference- looks like something everyone should read who ever has been or plans to be married. i can't wait to get into it. also, at church, 3 new people came up to me and introduced themselves and we just talked and talked. it was amazing. one woman, and two men- they were all parents- i could tell they really cared about me being there, as they were excited about being there, as well. it was such a warm, wonderful feeling... shaking their hands, exchanging smiles, conversation. i thank God for such welcoming, loving people. He really sends people along as needed.
2. choir concert. jody had a solo and she rocked the casa. i enjoyed handel's the messiah- i've always LOVED singing that piece- i sort of hummed along to myself. i miss singing a LOT. but i know that it would be a waste of time for me to sing here at BV. sad, but true, for me. my voice will be used someday though... i just know it! it may be a small voice, but God uses all voices, i believe. even those who can't speak....
3. procrastinated horribly. evidence of this is that it's now 10:30 and i thought i'd be able done w/ my paper by this time. yeah... only on page 2, thankyouverymuch. what's w/ this... i've just got no motivation whatsoever. too much on my mind.
4. the ra from last night came in and apologized for what happened... so we talked about that a little bit. she's a great gal. she's doing the right thing by apologizing to the people who it affected. i admire her for that. she knows she made a mistake, and she knows it will never happen again. which i am glad about. it was scary... honestly... just very scary. scary and shocking. it makes me wonder what in the world is funny about people who are drunk. there's nothing funny. there's something wrong, very wrong, and to laugh at it... is wrong. my heart goes out to those who are hurting and finding their answer by drinking. and those who just fall into it for no reason at all- or get pushed into it.
5. float night in swope's main lounge. woohoo, root beer floats!!! i enjoyed that!!! (yet another great distraction from working.)
6. more procrastination..........