i am proud

of my brother andy!

today was his college graduation-- well, he still has a few more hours to go to officially be a graduate, but we celebrated it today after he walked at the ceremony. i hated sitting up there, looking down at him, thinking how horrible he probably felt. graduation should be a happy time. but he didnt want to be there. he was probably thinking about how sucky everything is, and how he's dreading the next few hours and money stuff and just all of it... he and i aren't extremely close, but i love him to death, so to sort of feel his pain for a few moments (ok, the whole day) made me very sad. i wish i could have taken it from him for the day and given him the chance to be happy and himself again. andy, if you read this, know that i love you and i'm proud of you (though i've already said it a million times-- b/c it's true). the sadness sucks, but you (we) will make it through. you're always in my thoughts and prayers.

had some good food as was expected. :) enjoyed staying at andy's apartment (apartments are fun places!). got tears when i had to say bye to em. (em, if you read this, i love you too!!!; thank you for being you!!!, and i hope and pray i get to see you again soon!!!) got a nice nap on the way home from columbia. it's 9:15pm and it feels like it's midnight (it has for hours now) and i'm drained. have been sort of antsy tonight. wanting to go somewhere or do something (and normally i'm pretty content to sit and read or write or clean or whatever). am missing the valet family terribly. :'( well that's enough for now. it's been quite a weekend thus far. am thankful for both good and rough moments; each make me stronger in some way or another. am thankful for family most of all, and for andy, and how he's (somehow) making it through.

night!