i feel pretty...

you know, yesterday and today have been such beautifully awkward days for me. beautifully awkward? well, yeah. see, i've spent the past- oh, forever- sad and down. but suddenly (yesterday, it was) a new burst of energy came over me. i blogged it up (yay for blogging!). i went to dinner w/ friends. i talked w/ residents. i watched two movies- TWO!- w/ friends as we rearranged my room and then as i cleaned my room (it was a mess afterward!, but fun to clean up). a change sure can do someone some good. like this new room setup. i like it. it's like a little apartment w/ a "bathroom/dressing" area and a living room/study area. it's great, truly. so today i've spent time talking w/ a few fellow ra's (i love my fellow ra's- they are all such great gals!), i put up a new bulletin board in the hallway and did some planning for future ra stuff like community builders (i'm getting back in the game, friends!), i finished some unfinished business in my ed psych class (thank goodness for email, trust, and an awesome prof like bev), i got a phone call from mom, i helped a resident w/ an issue, and i downloaded "a cinderella story" w/ hillary duff in it- from uwgo- wow, downloading movies. ever so illegal in this case... but it was sure fun. the movie cracked me up so much. i wonder if there are any guys out there who enjoyed it- b/c it's such a friggen chick flick! but i have to admit that i loved it. my favorite quote? "you are a bad boy. and that's a horrible shirt." wow! the movie did a really great job of stereotyping, i must admit that. sort of sad in a way but... that will happen. i felt happy for "sam" at the end when she and her prince kissed... but a little sad in a way... it looked magical, and that's what my kisses were like w/ my prince, but i guess some things are either too good to be true or all good things must come to an end. either way... i'm being strong today. no crying about that! i feel pretty today!

yes, i feel pretty today! b/c i am happy w/ being who i am. i am happy helping others. i am happy knowing that i am being myself and i am perhaps shining a light for others in doing so (for God's glory). earlier i walked around w/ my flannel pj pants, punk rawk tshirt and a stocking cap (let's just say that i woke up w/ REALLY interesting hair) b/c i was icky and hadnt showered- but i still felt "pretty." like, happy w/ who i am and what i look like. so... i showered... and now i feel even better. i love that i dont have to wear makeup to make myself feel pretty. its just me a my burt's bees chapstick (hey- it's turning cold and my lips need some support). and a super-comfy sweater that i got when i was working at spiegel (i sort of miss those days!, goodness... i accumulated so many clothes during those 6 months working there... lol). yes, i feel pretty. (a special "thank you" to God for helping me to feel this way and letting me know that i truly am a treasure, no matter what other people think of me, no matter what life's circumstances are. this has helped me to smile.)

welp, it's just past 5, so i'm finally off duty (gotta love weekend ra duty). might be taking a special trip to walmart this evening... to buy the cinderella story soundtrack (hey, it's the girl inside of me- i can't help it!). yeah, and food, too... yogurt, mostly. not sure what else i want. guess i'll think about it before i go. :)

welp. that's all for me, for right now. i know my blogs are forever long. i've just got lots to say. until next time...