just too good to me

God is way too good to me. yes, i really do think so.

first of all, i havent been getting near enough sleep lately, but somehow i'm still able to wake up around 7, shower, get ready for the day, do homework, eat breakfast, and make it to class on time-- every single morning. that's God.

i had to take a make-up test this morning before class at schaller-crestland, about 30 minutes away from storm lake. the drive there was absolutely gorgeous-- farmhouses, windmills, open land, and a TON of sunshine. i got there safely and soundly. and the test went pretty well. and i got to interact with a few of the special education students for a few minutes. that was God.

after the test, nancy (the prof) returned my last article abstract/reaction paper to me. i looked at the very first page, where i'd cited my article, and she'd written "this is not a scholarly journal." immediately i knew what grade i'd gotten... so i looked at the grading sheet... and sure enough. 0/10. she looked at me as though she felt awful when she was handing it to me, and she said she really wanted to give me the points, and she even checked with the other excep learner prof... and as i looked at the grade she kept saying to me "don't panic! don't panic! it's ok!" although i cried when i got back to my car, and felt like it was the absolute end of the world that i didn't do this one perfectly (it was a scholarly newsletter, not a scholarly journal-- what the heck were you thinking, leisha!?!?!? the syllabus says to use a JOURNAL!!!!!), after about 20 minutes i started feeling a little more comforted. more sunshine. and keeping in mind what nancy kept saying to me "don't panic..." -- yeah, i think maybe that was God.

in my religion & culture class we were discussing the 10 commandments statues and the supreme court case that's being tried today. we were all able and encouraged to speak and think for ourselves. just the fact that that's even a possibility for me... for us... that's God, most definitely. (thanks, God, for making me 'me,' and not anybody else.)

at the end of class i decided to check connected learning "just in case" we weren't having class at noon, since it was cancelled on monday b/c the prof was sick. i wasn't prepared for the class AT ALL and was already freaking out, thinking of all the papers and things i have due by friday. sure enough, there was a note from ann saying that she'll be gone all week w/ the flu. so the stuff that i had due for that class isn't due now until monday and/or wednesday. yeah... if that was anything or anybody... that was totally God. i so didn't deserve that.

and so here i am, catching a breather, the sunshine is shining in my room and my fabulous yellow curtains are making the room even brighter. i am reminded of the many gifts God hands to me every single day. little ones, big ones... gifts that i don't even know are gifts yet. and wow.

so yeah... God is really just too good to me.