bothered

it's been a wonderful day... really, it has. amazing weather (went for a walk around town in the evening-- wondered if this is really february!?), sun shining, got the official "go ahead" w/ study abroad, drove to alta to eat w/ desi's kindergarten class, spent time in the cent room chattin' it up w/ dawnielle and watching ciara and kanye music videos (andy-- i see why you like kanye now!!!) and chatted w/ scott richey a little. all was well.

but... i've been a bit bothered this evening. first, i have a couple of residents who i'd like to gently shove off a mountain. or something to the extent. freshman girls full of attitude-- living in a completely substance-free hall but ruining the atmosphere by being loud, drinking alcohol (and attracting friends who do, as well-- particularly large males), and disrespecting me like i've never really been disrespected before. what purpose does that serve, for them? do they find me stupid? i want to pull my hair out b/c of a few certain situations recently. ugh. how i wish they'd make things easier on everyone and just move to different places... out of this hall, b/c they're obviously not abiding by the substance-free policy.

second, i had a quick convo w/ kiel tonight; one i was sort of dreading. i didnt get ahold of him over january like i said i would-- we were planning on spending some good time together-- but we never really got to it. the funny thing is, he called me-- left messages twice-- and i never officially got back to him. so basically i came back to bv w/o ever seeing him and felt bad that i'd avoided talking to him (though it wasnt avoidance-- i'm just not sure what it was; laziness? busy days?). so... he came online and asked what'd happened to me, and i felt pathetic (i did anyway). i had no good excuse and told him so. i truly did want to see him. i miss the guy like crazy-- we used to have SUCH an awesome friendship but he went his way a little and i went to college and, from there, things sort of happen (distance, his insanely busy work life and such, him changing in general). basically i want that same friendship back. not necessarily the same friendship, but a good friendship (b/c i realize not all things are the same for him or for me). *sigh* i really wish i could've seen him before i came back up here. *kicking myself in the butt.*

so those are the main things that i'm bothered by. maybe another thing is that the weight that i lost last semester has found its way back to me, maybe w/ a little extra. i dont think i like that too much. and i've got a pretty insane amount of reading to do tonight. but... worse things could happen.

but i'm going to end this on a positive note. fumika and yoko will be arriving here at bv tomorrow-- i've not seen them since the end of last school year. they'll be staying 10-11 days, which i am thrilled about. i've missed them so much. i REALLY wish noriko were visiting, as well, but perhaps another time. i look forward to tomorrow being friday, taking a breather, spending time w/ friends some more (attacking fumichan and yokochan w/ gargantuous hugs!!!), and setting aside the homework for just a few mins (which probably won't happen-- i tend to do plenty of studying on friday nights-- and since i'll be on duty-- may as well!). happy night...